Well, hopefully, just today. I was supposed to run today, but I took it off. Today was an odd day. I did nothing and as a result, I wanted to do nothing...it sort of feeds in on itself; a dastardly cycle.
Ms. Awesome has come home from abroad, and I couldn't be happier. She is having a hell of a time with the jet lag, but each day will get a little better. I, myself, have been having my own sleep issues. I can't seem to make it through a day lately without needing a nap. Let me reinforce that statement by making it clear that when I need to nap it isn't just some passing fancy, no. It feels as though my body is literally shutting down. My ability to concentrate falls to nothing, I have issue focusing both mentally and visually on anything, my body feels heavy and leaden. Often I am unaware I have fallen asleep until I wake up a few minutes later, luckily this has only happened while I'm sitting somewhere. I don't think it's a sleep disorder, rather, I have just got myself into a self perpetuating cycle. The more I nap in the late afternoons, the more my body gets used to it. The logical result of that is my inability to fall asleep at a decent hour during the night. What used to be midnight or 1 in the am, has become 3 or 4 in the am. The result of which is my needing to take a nap in the afternoon...by now the cycle should be more than apparent.
Tomorrow is Tuesday. I hope to force myself through the day. I will occupy myself with whatever tasks I can find; physical, mental or both. I will run tomorrow evening and on the following day celebrate the 4th of July with my family. Two days of activity that will hopefully keep me from needing what is becoming a daily nap, is not enough to break the cycle, but I am hoping that, just maybe, it is.
"Shiny. Let's be bad guys."
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